Michael & I are high school sweet hearts, we dated 10 years before we married & have been married 7 years...8 in November... 17 years with this boy & I love him more & more every day, he is my best friend, my la la la lover, my everything. We have been through it alllll, from the tragic loss of his sweet, funny & amazing mom, whom we miss every day, to the tragic death of both of his uncles, to frustrating infertility issues, our failed in-vitro fertilization, then the horrible news of my emergency hysterectomy. Michael's favorite saying is "babe if we didn't have bad luck we'd have no luck at all" =o/
Fast forward to 2011, WOW... what a crazy year! We were the closest we had ever been to adoption last year. We were picked by our our agency & CPS out of 50 couples (CPS is where our agency places children from) to be one of 3 couples to possibly adopt a little boy, he was 18 months old & he was beautiful with the bluest eyes & sweetest little face, his name was Trey.
I just knew he was ours... NOPE!
Then there was our sweet sweet Shay, we got a call on a Wednesday night at 7:00 that we were getting a sweet blonde hair, blue eyed little girl in 2 hours.. our case worker said we will be at your house in 2 hours... Eeeeekkksssss.... talk about rush to find girl clothes, toddler toys, books, sippy cups ect... we were so excited. Shay was a foster placement but our agency said with her mom's past she would more than likely become adoptable. We were blessed to have that sweet angel in our home & in our lives for 4 months... Well she did become adoptable, but just not to us =o( She was placed with a family member who wanted her just as much as we did! We miss her funny laugh, her silly stories & her loving spirit.
I just knew she was ours... NOPE!
Then there was our "baby L" Awe *sigh*... I can remember holding him and loving on him like it was yesterday. We were sought out & picked by a young woman to adopt her son through a private adoption. We became very close to this girl & close to her family. We were blessed to be able to go to her sono appointments & spent time getting to know her before the big day... Well the big day came & it was amazing! I was in the delivery room & got to see sweet "baby L" be born into this world, then we got to have him in our own private room with us to start our bonding as a new little family... that lasted for 34 hours... his mom changed her mind as she was being discharged from the hospital.
I just knew he was ours... NOPE!
I have to remember & remind myself everyday that NOPE doesn't mean NO... It just means Not right Now, something bigger & better than we can ever imagine is on it's way. So for that I am thankful.
Trey
Sweet Shay
"Baby L"
We will always hold a special place in our hearts for each of these sweet precious angels.
May God be with each of them every second of every day.
