365 Days

 

Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

"For I know the plans I have for you"... If I would just say that to my self everyday what a difference my day would be. 1 year ago today I was blessed to witness the birth of a very special baby boy. Michael & I got to hold and love on this sweet baby for 38 hours. Why only 38 hours... well we may never know. But I do know that God made a promise to us, to prosper us & not to harm us, to give us a hope & a future.    

In the last 365 days He has kept his promise. We might have lost this baby boy, but He brought our baby girl back. We are so blessed to have our Priss back, she is such a joy & brings light into our life every day. I do often think of this sweet baby boy & in the beginning it was more worry & concern. But as this year has passed this verse keeps running through my head.."For I know the plans I have for you" He has a plan for Michael, Me our Priss & for this sweet baby boy. So 365 days later I'm at peace knowing that God is with him & holds his future in his hands.

Happy 1st Birthday Sweet Baby!

 

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16 year "togetherness" Anniversary

16 years ago today I went to prom with a sweet shy senior. Later that night he ask me to be his girlfriend. Saying yes was the best decision I have ever made. Michael is the love of my life, my best friend & my rock. He is the reason I can keep going after being knocked down. He is so fun & funny, he keeps me smiling. Babe, I know we have had some pretty rough times lately, but I know I couldn't of gotten thorough any of these trials with anybody else. You are an amazing man. I love you to the moon & back!!!!

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you

Our 1st Baby

Today with a heavy heart I am writing about our first baby... Our sweet Dakota.  He was actually my dear mother in laws pup, she had him for 10 months before passing away. I can remember the day Michael & I went with Cindy to pick him up from the breeder. It was in February just days away from valentines day, it was freezing out side and since he was less than a pound Michael put him in the inner pocket of his coat to keep him warm. Dakota was so much more than a dog, he was a part of Cindy (my MIL) he was that last thing that Michael had to hang on to from his mom. Dakota comforted us through some very hard and difficult times; he was always a sweet loving puppy that wanted nothing more than to cuddle in your lap.       He was and always be our 1st baby.

A sweet friend told me that she planted a rose bush when her dog baby passed away & that it helped her feel like she was still taking care of him. I thought that was a perfect way to honor our Boo, so Michael & I went out and got a yellow rose bush & planted it for Dakota. We picked yellow because that was his moms favorite color of roses, what a better way to honor both Dakota & Cindy. The roses we picked were called "walking on sunshine" and it warmed my heart knowing that Cindy & Dakota were reunited today walking together on the sunshine.

Dakota you will never be forgotten, you have left precious paw prints on our hearts & we can't wait to be with you again up in the big ol' sky just this side of Rainbow Bridge. We Love you Dakota xoxo




***You can also check out my sister in law's sweet post about Dakota over at The Howell's.

Our story in a nutshell

Thank you for "liking" our new adoption Face Book page and for checking out our new updated adoption blog. We have been on a CrAzY roller coaster ride for the past 5 years, we have had very high highs & the lowest of lows, but with the unconditional love of Christ, our family, friends & the strong unconditional unbreakable love Michael & I have for one another, we have survived the past 5 years and 2011, (which has been the worse BUT best year of our journey so far).  If you are a new reader to us & our story I will give a very quick run down... ARE YOU READY.... (insert the sports guys voice)

Michael & I are high school sweet hearts, we dated 10 years before we married & have been married 7 years...8 in November... 17 years with this boy & I love him more & more every day, he is my best friend, my la la la lover, my everything. We have been through it alllll, from the tragic loss of his sweet, funny & amazing mom, whom we miss every day, to the tragic death of both of his uncles, to frustrating infertility issues, our failed in-vitro fertilization, then the horrible news of my emergency hysterectomy. Michael's favorite saying is "babe if we didn't have bad luck we'd have no luck at all"  =o/

Fast forward to 2011, WOW... what a crazy year! We were the closest we had ever been to adoption last year. We were picked by our our agency & CPS out of 50 couples (CPS is where our agency places children from) to be one of  3 couples to possibly adopt a little boy, he was 18 months old & he was beautiful with the bluest eyes & sweetest  little face, his name was Trey.
I just knew he was ours... NOPE!
Then there was our sweet sweet Shay, we got a call on a Wednesday night at 7:00 that we were getting a sweet blonde hair, blue eyed little girl in 2 hours.. our case worker said we will be at your house in 2 hours... Eeeeekkksssss.... talk about rush to find girl clothes, toddler toys, books, sippy cups ect... we were so excited. Shay was a foster placement but our agency said with her mom's past she would more than likely become adoptable. We were blessed to have that sweet angel in our home & in our lives for 4 months... Well she did become adoptable, but just not to us =o(  She was placed with a family member who wanted her just as much as we did! We miss her funny laugh, her silly stories & her loving spirit.
I just knew she was ours... NOPE!
Then there was our "baby L" Awe *sigh*... I can remember holding him and loving on him like it was yesterday. We were sought out & picked by a young woman to adopt her son through a private adoption. We became very close to this girl & close to her family. We were blessed to be able to go to her sono appointments & spent time getting to know her before the big day... Well the big day came & it was amazing! I was in the delivery room & got to see sweet "baby L" be born into this world, then we got to have him in our own private room with us to start our bonding as a new little family... that lasted for 34 hours... his mom changed her mind as she was being discharged from the hospital.
I just knew he was ours... NOPE!

I have to remember & remind myself everyday that NOPE doesn't mean NO... It just means Not right Now, something bigger & better than we can ever imagine is on it's way. So for that I am thankful. 

 Trey

 Sweet Shay

 "Baby L"

 We will always hold a special place in our hearts for each of these sweet precious angels. 

May God be with each of them every second of every day.

Blaa =o/

I need to be a better blogger!! I cant use the excuse that I don't have time... because people with babies, jobs & hubby's take time out to update & post on there blogs. Honestly I sometimes think no one cares what I have to say =o(   Then I think I'm really boring and I don't have much going on... So I guess for now I might just make this a photo blog.... I might just post pictures... until something fabulous happens... then I'll talk about that!

I would love to camp here with friends & family!!

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Really missing these babies today!! I pray for you both every day. I pray that you both are getting all the love that you deserve. I pray that God has his angels watching over you. I pray a hedge of protection over you. I pray that you will remember how much we loved you both! I pray!!!